NOTHING….SIMPLY NOTHING

“NOTHING…. Simply nothing”

Drooled her Reynolds gel;

Lean long letters

Etched for the puzzled world.

I walk a stranger in a house   

They say is mine.

Scarcely breathing,

For the air smells strange.

Looking beyond furniture,

My vision hits the walls.

Build a home within the walls-

They said.But its built

And I am a new piece

That fits nowhere.

“NOTHING….simply nothing”

She was the happiest bride ever seen.

Shamelessly in love

With a stranger from the net.

I search for the confident

Young lady

Who knew her mind,

But she crumbled

Between wrinkled knuckles

That set her in shape.

But the new joints ache

And I wish to be what I was.

Good girls comply

So said silent and whispering voices around.

“NOTHING….simply nothing”

Never heard her complain

Never seen a mark of pain

Then WHY????

Loved, adored, admired, respected

In a world of desks and benches,

Where I carved

Myself, my beliefs

And became the I,

Became the mistress

Of my rented home, Then left it

In a blink of an  eye

For a world of dreams

Where my I

Melted into non existence.

NOTHING….simply nothing

No reason for her to grumble

So much of love from her man

And well deserved rest after years of work.

I pushed the stool

With the tip of my toe.

My soul squeezing out

Of tightening fists

Pulling at the noose

And snap! I am out

Looking at myself

Swinging like my mood swings,

Sticking out a tongue

At everyone who will come.

NOTHING….simply nothing

Too vague a suicide note

For a woman

Who had everything.